This week, I've been thinking about simplicity and how I have always lived in a living space that was cluttered and disorganized. As a kid, I spent large amounts of time cleaning up my room the cleaning job never lasted very long, because, let's face it, I just always had too many things for the size of my space and I'm just not great at organizing things. I organize them, I can't find them, I tear everything apart looking for something and the cycle continues. Projects get forgotten, letters don't get answered and things that are important get squished or broken.
Today we went to look at an apartment. It's not bigger than the one we live in, maybe even a bit smaller, but I could see the benefits of a bit of yard space and a garden, a more functional kitchen and a place with tons of character that's out of the downtown core and on a quieter side street.. We're thinking about it.
But clutter and stuff is holding back my concept of how it would work. How to move everything, how to fit everything in, how to have enough space to do all the things I want or think I want to do. I'm still struggling to find that simplicity and balance my need for at least some of the stuff that I have even in our current space and I want moving (when we do) to not be such a chore and to be a positive experience. I want to let go of some things I've been holding on to and make more room for simplicity in my life, and hope that the harmony and opportunity for new friendships and experiences and things to make is more forthcoming than it has been so far this year.
I also want to feel less bogged down by all I have to do each day. I have too much on my plate as usual, with pressure to work more hours and take on more responsibility at my job, as well as balance my work for school, Etsy business and having some actual time to myself to just linger in the park when I walk the dog or get enough sleep every night. I know I seem to write about this struggle for balance and more simplicity a lot, but I guess it's just a state of mind that's still eluding me at this point in my life, and probably will continue to as long as I'm in school and working.
But you know, I'm not against undertaking a huge decluttering project to help myself on the way! I'm even getting rid of books people --and I'm a former English major, so this is how you know it's a bit deal.
So here are my decluttering goals for the coming week:
1) Clean out possibly aptly named "hoarder's closet"- including going through some of my craft stores and getting rid of some things.
2) Go through my closet and get rid of things I don't wear or really actively dislike.
3) Go through the bookcase and choose some books to get rid of